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May 19th, 2009

Taking the Plunge @ 11:41 am

Alright so I've decieded to take the GRE and make my way back to school. I want to go to grad school and I'm looking into getting a MA in Psychology. I have been thinking about it a lot lately so I am very excited about it. I'm starting to review and I feel like I have the analytical and verbal in the bag, but the quantitative is where I'm going to need to review a lot. Anyone want to help me with math skillz?

May 5th, 2009

Astrology to look forward to starting on Thurs...actually it feels like its begun @ 10:14 am

Mercury, the messenger of the gods Mercury Retrograde
Mercury retrograde in Gemini & Taurus [May 7 – May 31, 2009]

At 05:01 UT (Universal Time), on Thursday, May 7th, 2009, Mercury the cosmic trickster turns retrograde at 1°44' Gemini, in the sign of the Twins, sending communications, travel, appointments, mail and the www into a general snarlup! The retro period begins some days before the actual turning point (as Mercury slows) and lasts for three weeks or so, until May 31, when the Winged Messenger reaches his direct station. At this time he halts and begins his return to direct motion through the zodiac.

Everything finally straightens out on June 14, as he passes the point where he first turned retrograde, just before Jupiter turns retrograde in Aquarius. Mercury normally turns retrograde three times a year, but this year he turns tail four times, which is unusual. The effects of each period differ, according to the sign in which it happens (see box for Retrograde Periods in 2009).

A planet is described as retrograde when it appears to be moving backwards through the zodiac. According to modern science, this traditional concept arises in the illusory planetary motion created by the orbital rotation of the earth with relation to other planets in our solar system. Planets are never actually retrograde or stationary, they just seem that way due to this cosmic shadow-play.

Retrograde periods, although often problematic for us earthlings, are not particularly uncommon. Each planet retrogrades, except the Sun and Moon. Although a powerful astrological influence, Mercury is quite a small planet that travels at a relatively fast speed through the zodiac. Despite being the closest planet in our solar system to the Sun, he is not always in the same sign as the Sun. This time, Mercury turns retrograde in Gemini (variety; sociability), while the Sun is in Taurus (security; material pleasures), but retrogrades into Taurus while the Sun is in Taurus. The Sun moves into Gemini while Merc is still in Taurus, but Mercury soon thereafter heads back to join the Sun in Gemini!
Go to Top Fated Events

As a rule, retrograde planets mark a period of seemingly inevitable or fated events that relate to their sphere of influence. Unresolved issues from the past tend to rear their heads. Retro phases present us with a series of events over which we seem to have little or no conscious control, relating especially to the sign in which the retrogradation occurs. For example, Mercury retrograde in Gemini (variety; sociability) awakens quite different sets of circumstances from those generated when he retrogrades into Taurus (security; material pleasures).

A retrograde period is best seen as a cycle, beginning when a planet begins to slow to a halt before travelling backwards through the zodiac, and ending when it returns to the point where it first paused. However, during the cycle, a planet's energy is most powerful (and more likely to generate critical events of universal importance) when the planet makes a station: appearing motionless in the sky.

These stationary periods occur near the beginning of the cycle (when the planet first halts as it prepares to move backwards) and midway through the cycle when the retrograde planet slows to a stop before moving forward again. The direct station (when the planet halts before moving forward again) is the most powerful and can be used for maximum benefit.

Many astrologers consider that the "Mercury Shadow" begins between two and three weeks before the actual retro station (on April 23, when Mercury passes the point of direct station for the first time in this cycle). This has some justification, but I am more inclined to think that the really noticeable peculiarities begin when Mercury slows significantly, a few days before the retro station. This period of "Mercury Shadow" extends to the Return date, something under three weeks after the direct station. Bear this in mind, because experience shows that the effects of the retro period are still marked during the "shadow" phase. Some of the most characteristic annoyances often occur just after Mercury makes the direct station, while he is crawling forward before picking up speed.
Go to Top What does Mercury affect?

In general, Mercury rules thinking and perception, processing and disseminating information and all means of communication, commerce, education and transportation. By extension, Mercury rules people who work in these areas, especially those who work with their minds or their wits: writers and orators, commentators and critics, gossips and spin doctors, teachers, travellers, tricksters and thieves.

Mercury retrograde gives rise to personal misunderstandings; flawed, disrupted, or delayed communications, negotiations and trade; glitches and breakdowns with phones, computers, cars, buses, and trains. And all of these problems usually arise because some crucial piece of information, or component, has gone astray or awry.

It is not excatly wise to make important decisions while Mercury is retrograde, since it is likely that such decisions will be clouded by misinformation, poor communication and careless thinking. Mercury is all about mental clarity and the power of the mind, so when Mercury is retrograde these intellectual characteristics tend to be less acute than usual, as the critical faculties are dimmed. Make sure you pay attention to the small print!
Go to Top The Key Issue

The key issue here is one of focus. Mercury's retro phase tends to bring unforeseen changes and blockages, but the aggravation and frustration that many of us experience during these periods is often due to our own inability to roll with the punches. Is this due to our ego-fixation?
Mercury sets out to restructure our thinking processes and for many of us this is painful and frustrating. Unresolved issues from the past tend to push themselves forward. Moreover, these experiences reveal flaws in our internal organisation as well as our external planning, which can make us feel foolish and inadequate.

Mercury retrograde, like any cosmic aspect, affects people differently, depending on where it hits their personal charts. Some people actually prosper under a retro Mercury, especially if Mercury is retrograde but otherwise well-aspected in their birth charts.
It is also a time when matters begun under a previous retro period will come to fruition, or completion as the case may be. Firm decisions that have been previously made when Mercury is travelling normally through the zodiac may be implemented or finalised while Mercury is retrograde without too much worry, for experience shows that this can be done without undue problems arising.
Go to Top Mercury Retrograde in Gemini
Gemini, the Twins

When Mercury is retrograde, everyone's thinking is more introspective; we tend to think about issues and concerns that relate to the sign involved. With Mercury retrograde in his own sign Gemini, people with this sign prominent in their charts will be especially prone to such introspection. Gemini is a Mutable Sign, so the other Mutable Signs, Pisces, Virgo and Sagittarius will also receive a touch of the lash!

In fact, Mercury turns retrograde in conjunction with President Barack Obama's
natal Moon in Gemini, but in an excellent aspect with his natal Jupiter, Lord of Fortune. This aspect is a good thing, even if his mind is a little confused by all the pressure! His dealings with foreign powers and should prove beneficial, though he will need to watch what he says, as his concealed foes will be waiting with knives drawn. In my article on Jupiter's 2009 transit of Aquarius we saw that that he has a six month period of grace after his inauguration. Well that period is more than half over and, despite the rhetoric, the main thing he seems to have done is to throw money at the problem. This will no doubt be a testing phase for his government.

May 1st, 2009

Dad @ 07:31 pm

So I heard from my older brother Daniel that he had been in contact with my Dad recently. Nobody in the family has heard from him in over a year, so it definately caught me by surprise. So I sent him an email tonight. His birthday is on the 11th so I figured I'd sneak one in there and see if he responds. I sent him a letter last year for his birthday and did not hear back. I have come to accept the role or lack of a role he plays in my life, but I guess a part of me still wants to have some connection. I know I'll never be Daddy's little girl, but I guess I'm an eternal optimist and can't help but be hopeful

April 26th, 2009

Oy @ 07:03 pm

Was just told by a friend I sound Jewish...oy vey

April 23rd, 2009

Processing @ 10:21 am

Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.

Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

April 18th, 2009

thoughts @ 12:28 pm

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
'Cause none of them can stop the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look? Ooh!
Some say it's just a part of it:
We've got to fulfil de book.

Couldn't have said it better myself. Bob Marley was a true genius. Being able to separate from mental thoughts that consume us is the only way to find true peace. It is so easy to get caught up in our fears and what ifs that we prevent ourselves from living. Some choose meditation, some choose yoga, some choose substances, vices, and the list goes on....Well meditation just makes me think more, yoga is good but does not always work for me, substances are just an escape. So my new plan! I will be working out more. Curves here I come, The olliptical has my name on it. Now I just need to buy a pair of noise canceling headphones! I ran into a friend this morning at an estate sale that I haven't seen in a couple months and she said I'd dropped a bunch of weight. Made me smile. I'm now back to my pre college weight and want to continue my way down. Guess going gluten/wheat free is working. Eating right for your blood type is the way to go. If you are curious about it just message me. I love sharing the knowledge :)

March 8th, 2009

Traveling Part Deux @ 10:37 am

Current Mood: wired

So I'm back in the airport again before my flight down to West Palm Beach so I thought I'd take a couple minutes and do some updating. Chicago was a lot of fun! I am actually really loving this city and wish I had more time to explore. The architecture is amazing and was lucky to get a tour from one of the founding mothers of my chapter in Santa Cruz. Her passion is architectural renovation and reconstruction so I learned way more about the buildings then I expected! I am in love with the Tribune Building. It was so amazing to see bricks and parts of buildings from all around the world. I touched a piece of the Arch de Triump and then walked 10 feet and touched a piece of The White House from before the renovations in 1950. Yeah seriously that was amazing. The Millenium bean was a trip and it was just great to people watch.

The convention went quite smoothly and overall was very productive. I was glad to spend some time with one of my board members who will not be returning for another term. I'm going to miss seeing that girl, but I know PhD programs come first. Last night we ate New York style pizza just to be controversial and it was damn good. It kicks Chicago pizza's butt in my humble opinion.

So now for the second leg of my journey! I am so excited to see my friend Emily and meet little Natalie Rose. She is still in the NICU and has lost a bit of weight, but she says that is normal before they are able to start gaining back weight. I'm going to be able to see some of my family on my Mother's side while I'm down in Florida and have just been eagerly awaiting this trip. I guess I should go get some Anatomy studying done. Ligaments, Muscles and Joints oh my!

March 4th, 2009

Traveling @ 12:52 pm

Alright so I have a 4 hour layover in Salt Lake City before my flight to Chicago so I thought it would be a good time to take a moment and do some writing. The plane ride though short was eventful surprisingly. It was one of the smallest planes I have ever been on. There were 11 rows and only 4 people in a row so yeah 44 people. The guy who was sitting next to me was this overly bitter British man. First the air wasn't strong enough for him, then the cookies tasted bad, his water was too minerally and continued to say how small the seats were. He continued to mutter under his breath and push his elbows into my side CLEARLY going over the armrest divider. Party Foul to say the least. I tried to just smile and read my Margaret Cho book, when I saw a man walking down the aisle. It was none other then LUMBERG! He can give me a case of the mondays anyday ;) I guess that's it for now. I am heading to a convention in Chicago and I'm so excited. I am one of six other girls who are running the convention and looking forward to meeting new people. After that my plan is to head down to West Palm beach and meet my new goddaughter. She is still in NICU and will be for another couple weeks, but I will take whatever pictures I can and give her the love she deserves.

Guess that's it for now.

February 19th, 2009

Asking for help @ 05:00 pm

Current Mood: Somber

I don't care what your faith is or if you pray to Jesus, Allah, Hashem, or Buddha. I request that you send healing thoughts and prayer to my friend. She is 9 months pregnant and experiencing complications with the baby's lungs. She has asked me to be the godmother and I'm doing what feels right to take care of that little girl as best I can.

I thank you in advance.

February 17th, 2009

Mother @ 11:06 am

Current Mood: anxious anxious

I drew the line that I'm moving out in June to make my own life. Go back to being independent and making my own way. Now almost every conversation with my mother feels like a death march. She's talking like I've already moved out and out of time, but then switches to the mode of wanting to rehash everything that needs to be done before I move out. If she wasn't so disorganized and scattered that would be easy. Executing tasks are simple for me and if things are laid out I have no problem. it takes twice as long trying to organize her chaos. I feel like every day is another ticking time bomb with her so I'm trying to be around as little as possible. Yes, I am greatful for her paying for everything she does. Lord knows its helping me save up for my move, but I hate things hanging over my head.

I know this is a rant and I'm just very frustrated at this moment. I love her and care about her deeply, but the way we do things is just so different. My big fear is that when I do move away it will fall apart, but I can't think like that. She has to live her life and this is the path she's selected for herself. I can't save her from herself. She's the parent.


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